the untitled

I honestly don't know what to title this post, hence the untitled title. Now that I've used forms of title so many times I'm exhausted, let me just vent to you readers a little bit about some of the things that have gotten under my skin for a little bit. Sometimes I feel like my brain is overwhelmed with so many thoughts and worries that it has become a big bowl of soup with millions of alphabet letter noodles floating around in it. (So much so that I just spelled bowl BOUL. Help me.)
If you don't desire to read about my issues under my skin, just read on. Sometimes a girls gotta vent to something that doesn't respond directly, ya know?
Anyways, #1: I'm getting super sick of people sugar coating things. I mean that in the way that if someone doesn't actually want to do something or isn't excited about doing something, then actually tell me. I would much rather have everyone be honest with each other and face reality. Give it to me straight and I won't be offended. People choose to be offended and if I am offended, it's my own darn fault.
#2: I'm tired of feeling second string. Like a third or fourth wheel. Or like I'm a step down from other friends. Does that make sense? Sometimes I wonder if I'm really that good of friends with someone as I might think...
#3: I'm kind of tired of not planning things. I have this weird issue with having to know what's going on ahead of time. I'm okay with hanging out with friends last minute, but it's when people talk about doing something, but no one takes the initiative or forgets to contact you or everyone else so I end up sitting at home reading a book and actually catching up on stuff that I really don't want to do at the moment. If no one else is going to take charge and make decisions, then I will!
Sorry for boring you with a venting sesh, but sometimes I really need to get a few things off my chest. I appreciate your willingness to listen. ;) Or read rather.

P.s. for those of you really following my blog, I have found plenty of time to paint my nails. Multiple times actually. I think I'm finally physically put back together. Mentally and emotionally, it depends on the day.

P.p.s. Less than a month until my birthday! "Presents are not required, but encouraged..." ;)